September Beat the Backlist Wrap-Up


Hi guys, it's time for me to share the progress I made this month with the Beat the Backlist Challenge, hosted by Novel Knight. Oh boy, this month was not good for reading. I spent a good chunk of it not feeling well because of the resurgence of my heart failure symptoms, so reading was the last thing on my mind. Really hoping October is better because I really need it to be better. I completed no backlist books this month, but I am currently reading one, so hopefully I'll have at LEAST one in October's wrap up post.

Read: 0

DNF: 0

Currently Reading: 
Warcross

If you are doing this challenge, how did September go for you?

Alexia's August/September Book Haul

Happy Fall, everyone! I'm so excited that we've finally entered my favorite time of the year and I can only hope this fall is much better than the previous two Falls. 

Over the past 2 months, I've only gotten a few books. I cannot believe the haul is so small, but maybe that's a good thing. Maybe I can catch up on a lot of books in the next few months. One of these, I've already read, and I am reading another one in this pile. I am really excited about these four review books!

For Review
Pulp
 by Robin Talley
A Danger to Herself and Others by Alyssa Sheinmel
The Fade by Demitria Lunetta
You Owe Me a Murder by Eileen Cook

What books have you gotten recently?

Most Anticipated: October 2018

Most Anticipated is a monthly feature here where I talk about all the books releasing in the upcoming month that I'm excited for. This isn't an exhaustive list or anything, just the books that I personally can't wait to get my hands on. October is a MONTH. I love fall for so many reasons but one of the biggest is that it's book release season!


Ogre Enchanted by Gail Carson Levine [Goodreads]
I only just read Ella Enchanted for the first time this year and I adored it. I really hope this prequel is just as charming.

Watch You Burn by Amanda Searcy [Goodreads]
I just learned about this book today, actually, while I was compiling titles for this post. But I've never read any books about this heroine's particular, um, problem, which is pyromania I guess? I'm intrigued. 

The Light Between Worlds Laura E. Weymouth [Goodreads]
This has been calling to me for a while now. It reminds me of Every Heart A Doorway which is one of my favorite books/series ever. And this cover!

Imagine Us Happy by Jennifer Yu [Goodreads]
I don't know why but every time I see a new YA about abusive relationships, it automatically goes on my list. And this is another beautiful cover. I have really high hopes.

The Brilliant Death by Amy Rose Capetta [Goodreads]
I read the description of this and I was hooked at the main character turning her enemies into music boxes. There are also mob families I think. I just need it. 

The Spite Game by Anna Snoekstra [Goodreads]
This is (obviously) a revenge thriller and you guys know I am all about my thrillers. This also has a bit of cat and mouse to the story and I looove that. I'm really excited.

Grim Lovelies by Megan Shepherd [Goodreads]
I started this recently and I love it! The world is so interesting and different from anything I've read before. I'm really excited to get more into it.

The Lost Sisters by Holly Black [Goodreads]
I haven't actually read The Cruel Prince yet and this is supposed to be set in its world. But I love all things Holly Black, so I'll definitely be buying this when it comes out.

Sawkill Girls by Claire Legrand [Goodreads]
I CANNOT wait to read this. The way the author describes it--"girls loving girls, girls kissing girls, girls being friends with girls, girls helping girls"--just grabs me. I know I'm going to love it.

Dry by Neal and Jarrod Shusterman [Goodreads]
I don't read a lot of post apocalyptic or dystopian books, but I think a combination of Neal Shusterman and a world without water could be enough to bring me back to the subgenres. This particular type of world, with a scarcity of water, is particularly scary to me given current events.

Damsel by Elana K. Arnold [Goodreads]
I don't even know a whole lot about Damsel, I just know that it's been raved about by people I trust and that it's a feminist fairy tale. You can't really ask for more, can you?

The Phoenix Empress by K. Arsenault Rivera [Goodreads]
I haven't actually read the first book, so shame on me here. But I know one of my best friends counts it as an all-time forever favorite. So I know I want to read this series one day. I mean, two warrior women in love? PLEASE.

Kingdom of Ash by Sarah J. Maas [Goodreads]
I don't even know if I can say I'm "excited" about this book. But I'm relieved that I'll finally be free. I've invested way too much into this series to not find out how it ends, but I'm just full of fatigue thinking about it.

The Spy with the Red Balloon by Katherine Locke [Goodreads]
This is one of my most anticipated releases of the year. Despite The Girl With the Red Balloon hitting almost all of my anti-buzzwords, I read it and fucking LOVED it. I cannot wait to be blown away by this companion.

Blanca & Roja by Anna-Marie McLemore [Goodreads]
I just read this last weekend and oh my god, it's absolutely amazing. A must read for literally every YA reader I know. It's definitely a new all-time favorite for me and I can't wait to have a beautiful, red-foiled finished copy in my hands.

The Healer by Donna Freitas [Goodreads]
I don't know much about this except that it looks like it's going to be a magical realism story about a girl who can perform healing miracles. I don't really need to know much else, to be honest. 

Odd One Out by Nic Stone [Goodreads]
Guys, this sounds really weird, not gonna lie. But I loved Dear Martin so much, so I'm willing to take a risk on a wacky sounding plot because it's Nic Stone. Anyone else, probably not.

Book Review: Blanca & Roja by Anna-Marie McLemore

Blanca & Roja by Anna-Marie McLemore
Published on October 9th, 2018 by Feiwel & Friends
Genre: Magical Realism
Pages: 384
Format: eARC
Source: Publisher
Goodreads
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The biggest lie of all is the story you think you already know.

The del Cisne girls have never just been sisters; they’re also rivals, Blanca as obedient and graceful as Roja is vicious and manipulative. They know that, because of a generations-old spell, their family is bound to a bevy of swans deep in the woods. They know that, one day, the swans will pull them into a dangerous game that will leave one of them a girl, and trap the other in the body of a swan.

But when two local boys become drawn into the game, the swans’ spell intertwines with the strange and unpredictable magic lacing the woods, and all four of their fates depend on facing truths that could either save or destroy them. Blanca & Roja is the captivating story of sisters, friendship, love, hatred, and the price we pay to protect our hearts.

This was absolutely amazing.

After reading McLemore's story in Toil & Trouble, her voice and writing style lingered in my mind for days. Every time I'd log into NetGalley, I'd see the cover of Blanca & Roja, just calling to me. So I downloaded it and it was one of the best reading decisions I've made all year. Everything you've heard about this book, from the blurbs to the positive review, to the catchy "Snow-White & Rose-Red meets Swan Lake" description in the PW announcement--this book delivers. It was exactly what I wanted it to be and now it's an all-time favorite I'll definitely be reading and rereading over and over again.

If you've read anything by Anna-Marie McLemore, you know she has a very distinct writing style. It's magical. It's lyrical. Her imagery is just beautiful. This book is stuffed full of it, and I think it's her best writing to date. I especially love how everything of hers that I've read so far has been full of nature and this is no exception. The sisters' mother has an enormous, bountiful garden; they live on the edge of a magical wood; there's a cranberry farm close by; one of the main characters grew up in an apple orchard. It makes you feel like you too are this close to the magic if you only step outside.

There are four main characters: sisters Blanca and Roja, and the two boys who come out of the woods, Yearling and Page. They are all just... haunting. These are people you won't be able to stop thinking about. I felt a particular fondness for Roja, who felt almost like an underdog, the forgotten sister stuck living in Blanca's shadow. I also really loved Yearling; he was just so broken and fragile and I loved his relationship with Roja, the way they pulled each other apart and pieced each other back together. I also really, really loved Page's role in the story, the way he was a sort of anchor for both Yearling and Blanca. The friendship between all four of them got me right in the heart. Whenever they were at odds with one another it was like a sucker punch right to the gut.

Outside of how magical and perfect Blanca & Roja is, it is also the perfect example of how easy it is to be inclusive in our writing. Page is genderqueer. He uses both he and her, but just boy and never girl. And Roja, Blanca, and Yearling all just respected that. Page and Yearling's grandmothers were in a relationship. Even something as simple as Yearling asking to be called by Yearling and not his other name, something that should be easy but somehow isn't in the real world, is respected in this book. So much of this book is about identity and I can't tell you how much it meant to read a book exploring identity that wasn't upsetting and didn't rely on queer pain to do it.

Five-star reviews are so hard to write. When a book hits that all-time favorite level, it becomes so personal. There's so much emotion in why you love something this much and it's so hard to articulate. But Blanca & Roja is the perfect storm of everything I love come together in one story. Retellings and fairy tales and culture and identity and friendship and queer love and family and absolutely masterful, beautiful writing.

Top Ten Tuesday: Books By My Favorite Authors That I Still Haven't Read

Top Ten Tuesday is hosted by That Artsy Reader Girl
Today's topic is  Books By My Favorite Authors That I Still Haven't Read

Alexia's Picks
1. Salt to the Sea by Ruta Sepetys. I've read Sepetys' previous books and just recently bought this one on Book Outlet. Historical fiction is not usually my thing, but I make an exception for Sepetys' books because they are brilliant and make me cry.

2. What We Left Behind by Robin Talley.
I think I've mentioned before that I am a diehard Robin Talley fan and yet, I still haven't read this book. I actually don't even own it, but I clearly need to rectify that as soon as possible.


3. Fall for Anything by Courtney Summers.
I could have listed a few of her other books, but this one is the only one I actually have a copy of. I've read both Cracked Up to Be and All the Rage and am currently reading Sadie, but I've been extremely curious about Fall for Anything for awhile.


4. Everything All at Once by Katrina Leno.
I could have listed Summer of Salt instead, but Everything All at Once is older and I'm mortified that I still haven't read it despite having a review copy of it. Leno's books have been so amazing and I am eager to catch up on her work.


5. Dress Codes for Small Towns by Courtney C. Stevens.
Stevens' first two books were so amazing, and in fact her debut, Faking Normal is still one of my favorite books of all time. And somehow, despite having a review copy of this one, I still haven't read it. I have that one to read as well as her newest release to read. Again, I need to catch up on my review pile.
6. Down With the Shine by Kate Karyus Quinn. Quinn's first two books were unlike anything I had ever read before. She quickly earned herself a spot on my favorite authors list. I have both a review copy and a finished copy of this book. Hopefully this fall I can get to it.

7. Behold the Bones by Natalie C. Parker.
Beware the Wild was one of my favorite books when it first came out and I cannot believe I still haven't read this one, the follow up/companion story, whatever you want to call it. Maybe I can get to this one soon as well.

8. When the Moon Was Ours by Anna-Marie McLemore.
After reading Wild Beauty, McLemore jumped into my list of authors who I loved and whose earlier books I needed to read. When the Moon Was Ours is one of her previous releases and it's one I hope I can get to before the end of the year.

9. Daughters Unto Devils by Amy Lukavics.
Okay, so I've only read one of Lukavics books, but it was so good, so creepy and spellbinding that she jumped into my list of favorite authors. I know Daughters Unto Devils is a lot of people's favorites, so I am going to have to get to it soon.

10. Ramona Blue by Julie Murphy.
I was one of he few who absolutely adored Murphy's debut, Side Effects May Vary and after reading the body-positive greatness that was Dumplin' she got herself on my list. I remember when Ramona Blue was first announced and I was stoked. Yet, I still haven't read it. I keep meaning to, but I just never get around to it. I definitely need to make it a priority.

Have you read all of your favorite authors books?

Finally Fall Book Tag

I saw this tag on BookTube as usual, but this time can't seem to track down the original. I wasn't tagged, of course, but as it's the first day of my favorite season and this is a tag all about that season, I just had to.



1. In fall the air is crisp and clear: name a book with a vivid setting!

Even though the characters go to a bunch of different places in this book, the one that sticks out the most to me was Confection. A whole entire world made of candies and cakes and other, well, confections. I've never read anything quite like it.

2. Nature is beautiful… but also dying: name a book that is beautifully written, but also deals with a heavy topic like loss or grief.

This is written in verse, so I know it's not for everyone, but I thought it was breathtaking. It tells the story of conjoined twins, Grace and Tippi, and their daily life and their struggle with whether or not to undergo the surgery to separate. 

3. Fall is back to school season: share a non-fiction book that taught you something new. 

 I don't read a ton of nonfiction, so I had to dig back a few years to find this one. I learned a lot about the process of death in our society and in other cultures as well. And it made me think a lot about what I want after I pass, which is morbid, but there you go.

4. In order to keep warm, it’s good to spend some time with the people we love: name a fictional family/household/friend-group that you’d like to be a part of. 

 Who wouldn't want to be a knight/best friends with Alanna? Or a street urchin/thief with George?

5. The colorful leaves are piling up on the ground: show us a pile of fall-colored spines! 
This was a Struggle! I haven't actually read a single one of these, oops.

6. Fall is the perfect time for some storytelling by the fireside: share a book wherein somebody is telling a story.

 This is the first book that popped into my head and honestly, I couldn't find a better one if I tried. This is a story within a story within a story. If you want intricate layers and mind-blowing reveals, plus the friendships of an absolute lifetime, read this book!


7. The nights are getting darker: share a dark, creepy read.

 I don't read a ton of graphic novels but this one sticks out as dark and creepy! Especially the scene where the main character has to explore the hospital. The second installment came out recently and I can't wait to see wtf is going on.
 
8. The days are getting colder: name a short, heartwarming read that could warm up somebody’s cold and rainy day.

 Okay, I swear I don't read many graphic novels even though I just shared a good handful. But this is the ultimate heartwarming read. It is just lovely and adorable and made me cry happy, happy tears at the end.


9. Fall (luckily, it’s my favorite season) returns every year: name an old favorite that you’d like to return to soon.

It's been sooo long since I was in the world of The Lunar Chronicles and that needs to change! I can't believe I still haven't read Winter, Stars Above, or the graphic novels. I love this series so much so it's time to act like an actual fan.
10. Fall is the perfect time for cozy reading nights: share your favorite cozy reading “accessories”!
So I'm pretty much a creature of habit and my reading routines don't change depending on the seasons. Instead, my bookshelf does! I absolutely love decorating for the holidays and we are working on a collection of garlands for every one. So far we just have fall/Halloween, Christmas, and a gold one that works for New Year's. For fall we also put up our glitter skull, glitter pumpkin, and twinkling black and orange candles. These bookshelves take an entire wall and are definitely the focal point of our living room.


Top Ten Tuesday: Our Fall TBRs

Top Ten Tuesday is hosted by That Artsy Reader Girl
Today we're sharing our Fall TBRs

Bekka's Picks
So, I have a large and spooky fall to-be-read pile, books that I'll definitely be talking about over the next six weeks or so. I didn't want to get repetitive, so I decided to share the top 5 not-so-spooky books I plan to read over the next three months.
 
1. Uprooted by Naomi Novik. I am very much a mood reader, and I just haven't been in the specific mood for a book like this. Yes, it's been years, and yes, I have waited that long to finally pick it up. It's a fairy tale retelling of Beauty and the Beast, mixed with some Russian folklore. Exactly what I'm craving right about now.

2. His Fair Assassin series by Robin LaFevers. I've been talking about a reread for so long now, and dammit, I am dying to get to it. I need to set aside time and stop caring about ARCs or what my blog readers think. Reading should be for pleasure, and this is an all-time favorite series of mine that I need to revisit.

3. I Am Still Alive by Kate Marshall. Not my typical read for sure, but I think you can sense a theme going on in this TBR: historical and/or cold. This is a survival story that looks like it's set during the winter months, and it seems to have a hint of a revenge plot, too. I have this out from the library and I'm very excited to read it.

4. The Bear and the Nightingale by Katherine Arden. I'm actually reading this one right now. I'm writing this post ahead of time, so hopefully I will have finished this book by the time this list goes live. And I hope to love it. I can tell you right now that the opening chapters are exquisite. 

5. The Sisters of the Winter Wood by Rena Rossner. More Jewish and Russian folklore with a smattering of winter weather and a GLORIOUS cover. I've been dying for this for months now and it's almost here! I hope it lives up to what I believe it will be because it sounds absolutely amazing.


Alexia's Picks
Holy moly, I cannot believe it's already fall time! YAAAAAY! Anyway, 5 of these are review books and 5 of them are books I own. So it's following the usual seasonal TBR post format.
1. The Belles by Dhonielle Clayton. No this book isn't spooky or creepy at all, it's one that I started MONTHS ago and am very excited to go back to. I might read this one first so I can dive into the others right after.

2. The Fade by Demitria Lunetta.
I was obsessed with Lunetta's zombie duology, In the After several years ago. Although she has put out more books since then, I haven't gotten to read them. As luck would have it, I now have a review copy of her upcoming release.

3. The Hanging Girl by Eileen Cook.
I've enjoyed Cook's previous books, and for some reason just haven't gotten to this one yet. I would say October would be the perfect month for it.

4. The Hollow Girl by Hilary Monahan.
I don't think I've read any of Monahan's work before, but this book has been on my TBR for quite awhile. The cover still gives me the creeps, so I'd say it's perfect for October.

5. Nightingale by Amy Lukavics.
Lukavics won me over with The Women in the Walls, and ever since, I've been dying to read all of her books. I was thrilled to recently get a review copy of her upcoming release, and just looking at that cover gives me the creeps. I hope I'll be impressed with this book like I was with The Women in the Walls.
6. The Coldest Girl in Coldtown by Holly Black. I actually started this book 2 years ago (I think) and only recently have I wanted to pick it back up again. I remember it starting off really interesting, so I'm excited to return to it and hopefully finish it.

7. Stalking Jack the Ripper by Kerri Maniscalco.
I bought this book and book 2 a couple of months ago, specifically for the month of October. I had been super curious about this series for awhile and I look forward to diving into it soon.

8. Hunting Prince Dracula by Kerri Maniscalco.
I needed to buy the 2nd book in case I loved the first book, so I could binge-read the beginning of the series. Super stoked to dive into the series and hopefully love the first two books.

9. Drowning Instinct by Ilsa J. Bick.
I had totally forgotten about this book until I saw it on Bekka's recent Top Ten Tuesday list, and I think it was Bekka herself who had actually bought me a copy of this book. That gave me the jump-start I needed to put this book on my list for fall.

10. Anna Dressed in Blood by Kendare Blake.
I have not read any of Blake's books, though I have on several occasions started Three Dark Crowns. I honestly don't know much about this book, but I am very eager to start it.

What books are on your Fall TBR?

Book Review: After the Fire by Will Hill

Book Title & Author: After the Fire by Will Hill
Published by: Sourcebooks Fire on October 2nd, 2018
Genre: Contemporary
Pages: 464
Format: eARC
Source: Publisher
Goodreads
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Synopsis: 
A teenager’s world is shattered in a devastating confrontation between the cult she grew up in and the forces of the U.S. government. 

Father John controls everything inside The Fence. And Father John likes rules. Especially about never talking to Outsiders. Because Father John knows the truth. He knows what is right, and what is wrong. He knows what is coming.

Moonbeam is starting to doubt, though. She's starting to see the lies behind Father John's words. Then a fire engulfs life as she knew it, and Moonbeam is forced outside The Fence into a world she does not recognize.

Alternating between Moonbeam's life before the fire, and her time spent in a government-sanctioned facility afterward, After the Fire is a fascinating look at life inside a cult and its harrowing affects on survivors.

Review: 
Religious cults are one of the most fascinating concepts to me. I cannot imagine having complete & total belief & trust in one person when that one person is claiming to be a messenger of God. Leaders of these cults are said to be charming & charismatic. They have this ability to make people believe that they are telling the truth, even when that seems crazy. So, when I saw this book up for request on Netgalley, I didn't even stop to consider my ginormous review pile. I hit "request" immediately, and was thrilled to get approved not long after.

I was out of practice with reading really long books, so I wasn't sure how long it would take me to read After the Fire. What I wasn't counting on, was how engrossing I would find the book. How much I didn't want to put it down and how much I wanted to know all the answers to all of my questions. I wasn't expecting to be pulled in, right away. I love when books manage to pull the reader in right away. That is always a good sign. I was expecting a little more build-up, but I was thrown right into the chaos.

My heart hurt for Moonbeam. She was sure that she was the reason so many people were dead and it takes her a long time to understand & accept that she is not the reason so many of her Brothers and Sisters are gone. Everything she did on the night the fire erupted, was for her own good and the good of the younger children that could still have a shot at a normal life away from the compound.

It was fascinating to see where she had lost her faith. Not her faith in God, mind you, but her faith in Father John. It was captivating to see Moonbeam's journey from believing everything Father John said, to questioning all of it, silently of course. It was interesting to see how her interactions with certain people changed as her beliefs changed. What was most fascinating to me was the reasoning behind Moonbeam being promised to Father John as his Future Wife and how that had come to be.

There were several truly atrocious people in this book, namely Father John, but also Luke and Father John's inner circle: The Centurians, the four of them basically followed Father John's orders without question. Even when they seemed insane like locking someone in a metal box for days at a time. Like Moonbeam is told, withholding food from a child for days would be a case of child abuse in "normal" cases.

I wasn't expecting to like Agent Carlyle or Dr. Hernandez as much as I did, but I really felt like they both brought something extra to the book. Agent Carlyle in particular seemed more like a father figure, which was something Moonbeam desperately needed. Especially given the fact that her mom hadn't been a part of her life in 3 years. Dr. Hernandez was gentler with her, but I don't know if that was totally necessary. Moonbeam was incredibly tough and I got the feeling she could handle just about anything that was thrown at her.

I did enjoy the ending, but it seemed really rushed. There was one thing I was waiting for, that did happen, but I wanted more from it. I felt like the author didn't think this one thing was all that important, so he hastily stuck it in there at the end, without much thought.

Final thoughts: If you want a captivating book about a religious cult and the people that made and then wrecked it, then you need to pick up this book.

Book Review: A Room Away From the Wolves by Nova Ren Suma

A Room Away From the Wolves by Nova Ren Suma
Published on September 4th, 2018 by Algonquin Young Readers
Genres: Paranormal
Format: ARC
Source: Publisher
Pages: 304
Goodreads
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Bina has never forgotten the time she and her mother ran away from home. Her mother promised they would hitchhike to the city to escape Bina’s cruel father and start over. But before they could even leave town, Bina had a new stepfather and two new stepsisters, and a humming sense of betrayal pulling apart the bond with her mother—a bond Bina thought was unbreakable.

Eight years later, after too many lies and with trouble on her heels, Bina finds herself on the side of the road again, the city of her dreams calling for her. She has an old suitcase, a fresh black eye, and a room waiting for her at Catherine House, a young women’s residence in Greenwich Village with a tragic history, a vow of confidentiality, and dark, magical secrets. There, Bina is drawn to her enigmatic downstairs neighbor Monet, a girl who is equal parts intriguing and dangerous. As Bina’s lease begins to run out, and nightmare and memory get tangled, she will be forced to face the terrible truth of why she’s come to Catherine House and what it will take for her to leave...
Nova Ren Suma has long been an auto-buy author for me. I've even listed her as my favorite author quite a few times. Ever since I read Imaginary Girls one million years ago, I've been hooked on her storytelling and her words, buying a loving all of her work available to me. Coming off the high of The Walls Around Us meant I was desperate for more of her writing. This book couldn't get to me quickly enough.

I'm sad to say that even though I did like this, I didn't love it. I don't know if it was me or if it's the book, but there's definitely a spark missing here.

I really loved the first half, though. Suma's words are simply beautiful; she has a style all her own that honestly makes me jealous as an aspiring writer. I love how she is able to create this intricate world and family dynamic in such a short period of time. One great strength of this book is the complicated relationship between Bina and her mother. It's not a relationship I'd like to have with my own daughter, but it is one that feels authentic and realistic and messy in a real-world sort of way. Bina half worships and half hates her mother, and her mother is her own messy entity with secrets and a veneer not easily cracked. Learning about Dawn through Bina was painful but thought-provoking and made me reflect on my own experiences with learning that my parents were humans who made mistakes.

Suma knows how to write girls. She makes her characters fallible and messy and sometimes irrational and always angry. If you look across her body of work I don't think you'd find anyone who has better tapped into the teenage girl psyche. Bina and Monet's rocky, cat-and-mouse relationship is the perfect example. This entire boarding house is the perfect example. The world of this book and everyone in it felt so real. Especially in the first half of the book, it was hard to remember that this wasn't someone's memoir.

However, the second half just did not live up to all the first half promised. The middle certainly dragged. The biggest downfall for me was that there were so many secrets, so many things not coming together or making sense. The characters were treating Bina weirdly. There were so many questions. By a certain point in a book, you expect these questions to be answered. You should start putting the pieces together yourself, maybe just a little bit before the main character does. But these things never came together! I kept expecting Bina to just force their hands, to make them explain to her. I expected her to finally break open the brick wall and find those answers herself if the others weren't willing to give them to her. But pages just kept going by with Bina not pressing for answers, not doing anything at all. It was frustrating and for the first time ever, made me not want to pick up a Nova Ren Suma book. It was depressing.

Now, Suma's books have interesting endings. They're often a little open-ended, hard to pin down, slipping out of your grasp at the last second. They take me a moment to digest and understand. I expect that now, after reading all of her YA titles. But this? This was just downright confusing. I mean, understand (mostly?) what happened. But I don't understand the significance of a few things. I especially don't understand the specifics of how a lot of the details actually worked. We only figure out what went down at like 95% of the way through the book. I need a clearer explanation or someone to hold my hand and walk me through it.

I think that maybe a lot of this was on me. I had high expectations. The Walls Around Us was an absolute masterpiece, but more than that, all of Suma's books feel like they were written specifically with me in mind. They're exactly what I love: an authentic story about a girl so real you feel like you know her, with some paranormal/magical bits swirled in, a mystery to solve, and gorgeous writing. And a lot of that was delivered in A Room Away From the Wolves. But there was a missing piece for me, a clearer, more definitive answer that I'm looking for; a sharper connection to the characters; a compulsion to keep reading. That said, I still highly recommend Wolves of course, because I feel like someone smarter than me would understand it, and all of her previous books were amazing, this just wasn't my favorite.

Book Review: In Her Skin by Kim Savage

Book Title & Author: In Her Skin by Kim Savage
Published by: FSG on April 17th, 2018
Genre: Thriller
Pages: 304
Format: eARC
Source: Publisher
Goodreads
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Synopsis: Sixteen-year-old con artist Jo Chastain is about to take on the biggest scam of her life: impersonating a missing girl. Life on the streets of Boston these past few years hasn’t been easy, and Jo is hoping to cash in on a little safety, a little security. She finds her opportunity in the Lovecrafts, a wealthy family with ties to the unsolved disappearance of Vivienne Weir, who vanished when she was nine. 

When Jo takes on Vivi's identity and stages the girl’s miraculous return, the Lovecrafts welcome her back with open arms. They give her everything she could want: love, money, and proximity to their intoxicating and unpredictable daughter, Temple. But nothing is as it seems in the Lovecraft household—and some secrets refuse to stay buried. As hidden crimes come to the surface, and lines of deception begin to blur, Jo must choose to either hold onto an illusion of safety, or escape the danger around her before it’s too late.


Review:
I've had some bad luck with Savage's previous two books. One of them I gave 2 stars and the other one I DNFed, so I was worried about giving this book a shot. I generally have a 3 strikes policy with authors, so I was extra nervous about picking this one up.

I am so THRILLED to tell you that my nerves were for naught. This book was her best book yet and I am super stoked to see what is next for her.

Initially, I thought Jo was the manipulative one. The troublemaker, the one to watch out for, but that's before I met Temple and was introduced to a truly manipulative, calculating young lady who was fooling everyone, including me! As much as this story was about Jo and how she wormed her way into the Lovecraft's life, I found myself absolutely fascinated by Temple and the degrees she would go to in order to bring some excitement to her life. Clearly being filthy rich & all that comes with it wasn't enough excitement for her. No, she got into all sorts of crap. Crap I didn't expect from her initially.

There was much more to the Lovecrafts than I initially thought. There were more secrets than I expected. More unexpected twists that involved this family. I wondered how they could so willingly and so quickly believe that Jo was Vivienne Weir. I mean, being gone for as long as she supposedly was, only to have her reappear again and have her immediately welcomed into the Lovecraft's life seemed to be too much too soon.

The one issue I have with this book is that the few male characters, mainly Wolf and Slade, weren't as well developed as the rest of the group was. I was a bit disappointed by that. I wanted more from Wolf especially. I feel like there was more that Savage could have explored with Jo & Wolf's backstory.

Final thoughts: This book surprised me in a great way and it is definitely Savage's best book yet.

Book Review: Toil & Trouble edited by Tess Sharpe and Jessica Spotswood

Toil & Trouble: 15 Tales of Women & Witchcraft edited by Jessica Spotswood and Tess Sharpe
Published by Harlequin Teen on August 28th, 2018
Format: eARC
Source: Publisher
Pages: 416
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A young adult fiction anthology of 15 stories featuring contemporary, historical, and futuristic stories featuring witchy heroines who are diverse in race, class, sexuality, religion, geography, and era.

Are you a good witch or a bad witch?

Glinda the Good Witch. Elphaba the Wicked Witch. Willow. Sabrina. Gemma Doyle. The Mayfair Witches. Ursula the Sea Witch. Morgan le Fey. The three weird sisters from Macbeth.

History tells us women accused of witchcraft were often outsiders: educated, independent, unmarried, unwilling to fall in line with traditional societal expectations.

Bold. Powerful. Rebellious.

A bruja’s traditional love spell has unexpected results. A witch’s healing hands begin to take life instead of giving it when she ignores her attraction to a fellow witch. In a terrifying future, women are captured by a cabal of men crying witchcraft and the one true witch among them must fight to free them all. In a desolate past, three orphaned sisters prophesize for a murderous king. Somewhere in the present, a teen girl just wants to kiss a boy without causing a hurricane.

From good witches to bad witches, to witches who are a bit of both, this is an anthology of diverse witchy tales from a collection of diverse, feminist authors. The collective strength of women working together—magically or mundanely--has long frightened society, to the point that women’s rights are challenged, legislated against, and denied all over the world. Toil & Trouble delves deep into the truly diverse mythology of witchcraft from many cultures and feminist points of view, to create modern and unique tales of witchery that have yet to be explored.

Oh my god, this was fantastic. I don't usually like reading anthologies at all. I usually find that the stories are just too varied in quality and only one or two work for me. I also think a lot of writers struggle with writing a true short story; so much of the time the stories end too abruptly and feel like a first chapter. So I was apprehensive when I picked this up. But it actually blew me away! I don't know if it was just the subject matter that pulled me in immediately, or if this really is the best YA anthology ever, but this was so, so great. It blew me away.

Starsong by Tehlor Kay Mejia: This was the perfect start to the collection. I knew after reading this that Toil & Trouble was going to be such a good reading experience. Starsong has the perfect blend of magic and spirituality with technology and modern teenage-ness. The texting and flirting were adorable; I shipped the two girls big time and would have gladly read an entire novel about Luna. I can't wait to read Mejia's debut!

Afterbirth by Andrea Cremer: Not gonna lie, this was pretty gross at first. The descriptions were, well, descriptive. I loved the format; it reminded me of reading a play, especially The Crucible. This story definitely served to make me angry about the Salem witch trials all over again. And even though it was bittersweet, I really, really liked the ending.

The Heart in Her Hands by Tess Sharpe: This was really good! There was so much world packed into such a short little story. I always loved stories about girls forging their own paths and Bette was a trailblazer for sure. I do wish we got to see more of her magic, though. There was one scene where a witch was using a skillet as a wand, which REALLY pulled me out of the story. It was just so endlessly silly.

Death in the Sawtooths by Lindsay Smith: This was not my thing. If it had been a full-length novel, I probably would have picked it up, but as it stands, there just wasn't enough time to establish the world and the history between the two main characters. We didn't even know the villain, so his impact was entirely diminished. And he gave one of those long, ridiculous monologues. 

The Truth About Queenie by Brandy Colbert: I really loved the voice of this one and it makes me want to pick up the rest of Colbert's work. That said, I didn't love this as a whole. I wish there was a bit more magic. I also felt the ending was very rushed; there simply wasn't enough time for Queenie to naturally come around and find herself on her own. I really, really liked the best friendship though.

Moonapple Menagerie by Shveta Thakrar: This was a total case of "it's not you, it's me." I just don't click well with stories when I know there's going to be a heavy-handed lesson to learn by the end. Plus, the story itself was just plain weird and I couldn't get a handle on the setting at all. What I did love was seeing all these creatures and gods and goddesses from a culture I know nothing about; there was a lot of further reading on my end once the story finished.

Stone Mary by Robin Talley: This story had such a strong sense of voice, which pulled me in right away. Plus, a story about small-town legends, family secrets, and bloodlines is sure to be my kind of thing. I do think it went a bit off the rails with the whole witch-hunter thing, and the story would have been just fine without it, but it was still really good.

The One Who Stayed by Nova Ren Suma: Right off the bat I have to say, content warning for rape. It's not graphic or described at all, really, but it's there. That being said, this was still fantastic. I always love Suma's writing and the worlds she creates right inside our very own, very familiar world. I do wish it was longer; the story was just getting started.

Divine are the Stars by Zoraida Cordova: So good. I liked the main character, Marimar, a lot, and her relationship with her cousin Chuy. Cordova packed so much love and history into one small story. I found the magic to be absolutely beautiful, just the kind of magic I love to read about. Another one that started and ended well, but I would have gladly read 300 more pages.

Daughters of Baba Yaga by Brenna Yovanoff: This was also really good! I'm not at all used to this type of magic or this culture. I really, really enjoyed the writing and the revenge. I do think it lacked focus a little bit, and there should have been more time devoted to developing the friendship between the two girls. But still a very solid, fun read.

The Well Witch by Kate Hart: I wanted to like this, but it really wasn't for me. While I enjoyed Elsa, I didn't really love anything else. I didn't believe the romance at all. While the ending was kind of sad, I just found the whole story altogether pointless.

Beware the Girls with Crooked Mouths by Jessica Spotswood: This is the story I'm most bitter about. It had so much wonderful potential, but it felt like I was thrown in halfway through a book, and the ending was just as abrupt as the start. For a historical story with an arranged marriage between two women, a trio of magical sisters, betrayal, heartbreak, and poison, I was left cold at the end. How pointless and unresolved! This absolutely should have been an entire book, with enough time to flesh out the characters and the relationships. Short fiction was just not the right medium for the story.

The Gherin Girls by Emery Lord: So this one is a bit slice-of-lifey, which isn't my favorite thing, but I still ended up enjoying it. I loved the relationship between the two sisters, and their bond and the way they supported one another made me a bit teary at one point. That said, I really wish it had been more witchy.

Why They Watch Us Burn by Elizabeth May: This is one I really wanted to love but it felt like there was a wall between me and the story. I couldn't get a handle on time and place at all. At one point it seemed like the girls weren't actually witches at all, but just punished for being women, which is fine with me, but then everything changed and they were performing magic later on. I like the sentiment, but the elements all together as one just didn't come together for me.

So while I wouldn't say Toil & Trouble is the perfect short story collection, it comes damn close. Not every story was magical for me, but they all came together to form one wondrous whole. This was perfectly witchy, amazingly queer, with almost every story featuring an f/f romance along with other wlw side characters. I absolutely loved reading this and was so sad when the ending came; I want to read witchy little stories for the rest of my life, please.

Top Ten Tuesday: Books We Don't Mention Enough

Top Ten Tuesday is hosted by That Artsy Reader Girl
This week we're talking about books we don't mention enough on our blog

Bekka's Picks
 1. Underneath Everything by Marcy Beller Paul. I was absolutely in love with this book when I read it a few years ago. It still stands out as a favorite. It has everything I love in a contemporary, from the darkness and tension to the biiiiiiiiiiii characters. I love this to pieces and I need to recommend it more often.
2. Drowning Instinct by Ilsa J. Bick.  Another story about a tragic, toxic, bad girl. Those are my favorite stories, after all. If you want intense, heartbreaking, headspinning drama, this is the book for you. I could not put it down when I read it a few years ago. I think it's time for a reread.

3. The Archived by Victoria Schwab. I know most of V's fame comes from her adult SFF (Shades of Magic, Vicious/Vengeful) but I fell in love with her work through her YA paranormal series, The Archived. If you haven't read it, I highly recommend that you do. It's so creative and clever, and I love Mackenzie. 

4. Tides by Betsy Cornwell. This is one of my all-time favorite paranormal stories. It takes some of my favorite creatures, the selkies, and blends it with a beautiful sense of setting. The writing is vivid and gorgeous and the characters are all too real. There's just so much going on, so much packed into every word. If you want a spin on your average YA paranormal creature story, you should really try this.

5. Glory O'Brien's History of the Future by AS King. So AS King is known for writing some really weird books, and this is no exception. How many authors have thought about their characters drinking a petrified bat? Exactly. But if you give weird a chance, you'll find this to be an incredibly engaging, poignant novel about mental illness, feminism, and being an active participant in the world around you.

Alexia's Picks
1. Relative Strangers by Paula Garner. I think I'm gonna be the only person talking about Paula Garner's books. I think I featured her first book on a previous post similar to this one and now I get to talk about this book. I read this book earlier this year and it gutted me in a way I didn't expect. I spent nearly the entire book wanting to hug everyone in it (and I don't hug people) It was a stunning book that I wish more people were aware of.

2. And She Was by Jessica Verdi.
Like I've said before, I am a diehard Jessica Verdi fan and I couldn't wait to read this book. It features a mother/daughter relationship that is seemingly stable until the daughter learns the truth about her mother. I had never read a book featuring a transgender character, and I was really hoping it would be done well, and Verdi did an amazing job with this book.

3. Wild Beauty by Anna-Marie McLemore.
Beautiful, flowery writing is not normally my thing, but oh man, Wild Beauty exceeded my expectations in the best possible way. It made me realize that I need to read my review copies of McLemore's previous books. 

4. Just Visiting by Dahlia Adler. Dahlia Adler has yet to disappoint me and this book based around two best friends did not disappoint either. It's one of Adler's lesser known books for reasons I cannot even begin to understand. Friendship needs to be featured even more in YA, and Just Visiting does that, but with a smattering of romance too.

5. How to Make A Wish by Ashley Herring Blake.
I read all three of Blake's YA books this year, actually back to back (I did not plan it that way) and as much as I loved this year's release, I wanted to feature last year's release for this post. It was a story about family, about friendship and about love. It had probably my favorite couple of the year in it.

Have you read any of these?

Blog Tour: Sadie by Courtney Summers



Hi guys! We're here to talk up Courtney Summers' recent release, Sadie! I became a fan of Summers' books just a few years ago. So when I was approached to be part of the blog tour for Sadie, I jumped at the chance to promote the hell out of this book. I am writing this post in August, so hopefully by now, I've also finished my eARC of this book.

Excerpt
THE GIRLS
EPISODE 1
[THE GIRLS THEME]

WEST McCRAY: Welcome to Cold Creek, Colorado. Population: eight hundred.
Do a Google Image search and you’ll see its main street, the barely beating heart of that tiny world, and find  every other building vacant or boarded up. Cold Creek’s luckiest— the gainfully employed— work at the local grocery store, the gas station\ and a few other staple businesses along the strip. The rest have to look a town or two over for opportunity for themselves and for their  children; the closest schools are in Parkdale, forty minutes away. They take in students from three other towns.


Beyond its main street, Cold Creek arteries out into worn and chipped Monopoly houses that no longer have a place upon the board. From  there lies a rural sort of wilderness. The highway out is interrupted by veins of dirt roads leading to nowhere as often as they lead to pockets of dilapidated houses or trailer parks in even worse shape. In the summertime, a food bus comes with  free lunches for the kids  until the school year resumes, guaranteeing at least two subsidized meals a day.

 There’s a quiet to it that’s startling if  you’ve lived your  whole life in the city, like I have. Cold Creek is surrounded by a beautiful, uninterrupted expanse of land and sky that seem to go on forever. Its sunsets are spectacular; electric golds and oranges, pinks and purples, natural beauty unspoiled by the insult of skyscrapers. The sheer amount of space is humbling, almost divine. It’s hard to imagine feeling trapped here.


But most people here do.
COLD CREEK RESIDENT [FEMALE]: You live in Cold Creek  because you  were born  here and if you’re born  here, you’re probably never getting out.


WEST McCRAY: That’s not entirely true.  There have been some success stories, college graduates who moved on and found well- paying jobs in distant cities, but they tend to be the exception and not the rule. Cold Creek is home to a quality of life  we’re raised to aspire beyond, if  we’re born privileged enough to have the choice.

 Here, every one’s working so hard to care for their families and keep their heads above  water that, if they wasted time on the petty dramas, scandals and personal grudges that seem to define small towns in our nation’s imagination, they would not survive. That’s not to say  there’s no drama, scandal, or 

grudge— just that  those  things are usually more than residents of Cold Creek can afford to care about.



 Until it happened.

The husk of an abandoned, turn- of- the- century one- room school house sits three miles outside of town, taken by fire. The roof is caved in and what’s left of the walls are charred. It sits next to an apple orchard that’s slowly being reclaimed by the nature that surrounds it: young overgrowth, new trees, wildflowers.
There’s almost something romantic about it, something that feels like respite from the rest of the world. It’s the perfect place to be alone with your thoughts. At least it was, before May Beth Foster— who you’ll come to know as this series goes on— took me there herself. I asked to see it. She’s a plump, white, sixty- eight- year- old woman with salt- and- pepper hair. She has a grandmotherly way about her, right down to a voice that’s so invitingly familiar it warms you from the inside out. May Beth is manager of Sparkling River Estates trailer park, a lifelong resident of Cold Creek, and when she talks, people listen. More often than not, they accept what ever she says as the truth.


MAY BETH FOSTER: Just about . . . here.



This is where they found the body.


911 DISPATCHER [PHONE]: 911 dispatch. What’s your emergency?


About the Author
Courtney Summers was born in Belleville, Ontario, 1986. At age 14, she dropped out of high school. At age 18, she wrote her first novel. Cracked Up to Be was published in 2008, when she was 22 and went on to win the 2009 CYBIL award in YA fiction. Since then, she’s published four more critically acclaimed books: Some Girls AreFall for AnythingThis is Not a Test and All the Rage, as well as an e-novella, Please Remain Calmwhich is a sequel to This is Not a TestHer new novel, Sadie, hits bookstores September 4th, 2018 and is available for preorder now. In 2016, Courtney was named one of Flare Magazine’s 60 under 30. 

Book Review: The Dark Beneath the Ice by Amelinda Berube

Book Title & Author: The Dark Beneath the Ice by Amelinda Berube
Published by: Sourcebooks Fire on August 7th, 2018
Genre: Horror, Paranormal
Pages: 320
Format: eARC
Source: Publisher
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Synopsis: 
Something is wrong with Marianne. 

It's not just that her parents have split up, or that life hasn't been the same since she quit dancing. Or even that her mother has checked herself into the hospital. 
She's losing time. Doing things she would never do. And objects around her seem to break whenever she comes close. 
Something is after her. But a first attempt at an exorcism calls down the full force of the thing's rage. It demands Marianne give back what she stole. And Marianne must uncover the truth that lies beneath it all before the nightmare can take what it think it's owed, leaving Marianne trapped in the darkness of the other side.

Review:
I had been looking for a really good horror book lately, so I was excited to pick this one up. It looked really good and I couldn't help but be excited just based off the cover alone. The cover pulls you right in and that's what first excited me about this book.

So I dove into the book with excitement and high expectations. Maybe I shouldn't have had such high expectations because while it was an okay book, it was nothing like I was hoping it would be. The writing was actually my favorite part because it was so atmospheric and creepy. It actually reminded me of Nova Ren Suma's writing. I don't think I've ever read another book where the writing was like Suma's.

I did like that Marianne had an aunt that was so present in her life. We don't get to see extended family much in YA, so I feel like whenever we do, I have to at least make a mention of it. Marianne's Aunt Jen was a good surprise and I actually liked how she interacted with Marianne and how she interacted with her troubled sister.

I couldn't stand Marianne's father. In fact, I felt like he was a selfish man who ran when things got hard. And by things, I mean his wife's mental health. He called his wife's "episodes" Hurricane Laura. I mean, how much more unsupportive could he be? When he called Marianne's mom "Hurricane Laura" I almost always wanted to slap him. I know it's not easy to live with someone who has mental health issues, but he married her for better or worse and when things got "worse" he ran like a bat out of hell. Ugh, I cannot STAND that.

My heart broke for Marianne's mother. I couldn't imagine being so afraid of hurting people I loved. I couldn't imagine what was going on in her head. I couldn't imagine hoe scared she must have been when certain things started happening and she thought she was the cause of them. And to have her husband just walk out on her like that. Just because she was struggling with her mental health.

What I wasn't expecting was Marianne's romance subplot, but oh my god, I think I loved it more than I expected to. It was grin-worthy. I don't think I've ever used that phrase before, certainly not in a review, but I loved this romance. It brought some peace to the insanity that was Marianne's life.

I ended up being really disappointed by the horror/paranormal aspects of this book. I cannot believe I have to say this, but I was expecting something much scarier as the book continued on, and in fact, it got less scary and more confusing as the book went on.

Final thoughts: This book disappointed me in the paranormal/horror aspects, but for people who scare easily, this is a decent book to dip your toe in if you want to try horror.